Baby I don't think I can see your halo.

i had to write this down before i lost my paper >.<
--written in class as the boy i kinda sorta talked to's ex girl walks by. =[
im completely done with the whole thing really. he shall become my pass.


Ive never actually met a guy( i wrote nigga on the paper, but im tryna be relate-able to all races lol) with a halo.
Ive never actually claimed a guy ** (=p) to know
Actually I don't feel that's necessary because a guy's ** never shown sincerity on the heavens sent clarity which is rightfully unknown. (confusing but work with me)
But am I fool enough to read the bull shit as though it is realness written in stone?
Oh yes
For I could never cross to the other side in which females lie.
As dirty as the dozens I feel as if you could never understand me really.
In my soul I hold a sacred something truly my own that I will take to grave with me because
fear has me
weak to share and has captivated my life to where I am afraid to live
as another being but as scared.
scared to trust
scared to love
scared to care
scared to stay
scared to go
scared to think
scared to do
&& as each day goes by ultimately scared to breathe.
By the will power vested in me I get deep into these bowels if disgust and rise up.

Get this

I'm speaking metaphorically so don't be turned off by the nature of it this may come off a little explicit but just read it till the end. In order to understand me you can't just see me. Naah, you can't just walk by and view this and think you can pick up the jist just by a glance or even a stare. In order to under stand me you can't just smell me. These mind watering scents becoming too strong for your nose. Your hunger for me will grow intensly. As you begin to submerge me within the walls of your mouth just as soon as i come into contact with your lips i am instantly too much for your ordinary tastebud. As you swallow this I am way too thick and choppy for your delicate throat and you quickly wash me down with water. But water does not seem to resolve your issues as it burns like fire quickly thudding against the pit of your empty stomach. My mind doesn't speak out to those with weak souls I come hard and I come fast you either get it or you don't. But to actually figure me out; baby inorder for you to get me, you got to digest me entirely and fully. =]