New Journey

So basically this July is coming to a close

bout 2 more weeks of it and August will b here

that school feeling is soon to kick in

haven't started ne of my summer assignments

a.k.a. summer school work for advanced classes

that piss me off becuase I always do them last minute

might of fact now that I bring that up even though

this is still kinda late I still have time

Ima look them up on the school website soon as I finish this posts.

But ne who it's still summer

I haven't been blogging about each individul thing thats significant

and yes I apologise I should have been .

But to sum some shid up

my dads (wow haven't called him that in a while)

well havent reffered to him as that, you may know him

as "mybitch" as said in previous posts is still infact

a crazy bitch .... let me not get into that

* sighs , fans self*.

The stepmom still M.I.A. lol till the end of the month

*Smiles devilshy at the thought *

going to c real mom end of the month

*frowns but then smiles becuase it means

more extended time away from the evil stepmother*

But about my New Journey

I decided to go all natural with my hair

it wasn't becuase I want to get intouch with my roots

or ne thing that might actual sound good but

becuase I don't have ne money .

I don't have the dough to get my hair relaxed every 3 months

or more and then to pay 4 touchups and re-do's every 2 months.

I mean I could do relaxers at home but ....... I am not about

to lose all my hair becuase of myself lol ... I'd radther blame

it on someone else.

As well as my hair seems to respond better to this new

found naturalness it's growing like crazy. and it's good and thick

and not thin and lifeless like a relaxer leaves it .

I mean I don't care how mnay curls or whatever a

hairdresser puts in I'm

always pushing up my hair... fact is I just love big hair

and I just love my natural hair texture

thick wavy and curly.

I just can't wait till I start getting some real length

and my hair is really healthy.

I mean yeah it's growing but it's breaking to my ends are atrocious.

Ima get those cut down soon but im not ready 4 my big chop.

and yes big chop is a real term in the natural hair world.

Right now my last relaxer was jan.2009

i got another haircut and my back was razored down

so maybe thats about 5 inches or less of actual relaxed hair

add in big breakage about 2 inches or a lil more

probaly 1 now becuase I was flatironing my hair like crazy

in feb march april and may.

but when I went to get a transitioning style (another term)

4 the summer I had about 2 or more inches of newgrowth.

Right now I have nubian twists they look like dreads

and might I add they look damn good on me ...

I'd b a bad lil lightskin rastafarian lls ( and my family

is actually jamaican)

but ne who.... thats where I'm currently at

had these in for about 3 1/2 weeks

I'll probaly take em out middle of august and

gt some tracks ....

I need protective styles to keep me from going

flat iron crazy.

Last part of my new journey I plan on losing some

weight ... this time I'm not gonna beat myself up over it

Ima stop attacking myself and just go with the flow

... watch what I'm eating and how much ....

and actually get my lazy butt up sometime and workout.

Not Obbesses over lil things but take baby steps

and I have to thanks my fellow digestess for helping

me through my darktimes and showing me that

no matter what I look like I'm still a beautiful person and

no matter what I go through and do I can still be a better person

and that I am a good person

and as far as looks go .......

Im pretty fucking damn beautiful if I must say so myself

and my body is pretty damn goodlooking.

So fuck my haters ( and yes my hater is me )

I'm tired of putting myself down all the time

mentally and physically.

sick of it and it's time things change.

sooooo heres to change

and yes I will put up pictures .

(i mean more pics as I post,

the next time.

these 2 are a lil rough)