I am ..

I am the one who sits alone

at the lunch table sipping chocolate milk

watching everyone laugh with their friends.

The one that carries all those heavy books

for all her advanced classes and rushes to class

for she has noone to converse with in the hall

and fear of being caught in hall sweep.

i am the girl that gets ohh so nervous in front of

boys and can't stop smiling ...

I am the one who's quiet in the group

and lets all her friends do the talking

I am the one who's too chubby and fat to shop 4 clothes

I am the one who just cries

becuase I'm scared of life

I dnt feel these ways all the
time and I've grown up a lot
and changed in many ways but I am still this girl
I haven't forgotten what I used to be.

Fuck Friends

I wish a guy would want me for more than

just to fuck..

more than just to lay between my thighs

more than just his fuck friend

and whatever the hell else ..

I wish he would want me because he needs me.

He needs me around to make his day and my smile

would lighten up his world.

Our conversation would have so much meaning

so many feelings

genuine sweet feelings.

he wouldn't have to love me but he would care about me .

not just about how i look and how phat my butt is .

or even how rough and fast i like it...

i wish a guy would want me for more than just to fuck .

more than just his fuck friend...

Not Rockin

Wtf?
so nalani hooks me up with juan
as mentioned before....
but remind you guys that i rarely seen him in school
the face just looked familiar.

Soooo Springbreak is over
been talking to Juan a couple days we
agree to c each other in school...
WTF! I see this nigga he short as shit look little as shit.
Lil ass 10 year old looking boy
and he a junior
ohh hell no .

I aint Rockin..


Ummmm the Zo thing is a figment
of my imagination
he texts me bt when i txt back
he gives no further reply
... sooo we nt talking ne more? I guess =/

Geesh I can't leave them previous niggas alone
I hate that my resisitance is so loooow
there like kryptonite to my SuperWomaness lmao

Well this is another quickie 1st period is almost over
Love you guys MUUUUUAH

been gone for a minute

the yelnats and i have officially ended everything
no contact whats so ever
the myspace dead
text dead
calls dead
seeing each other ... extra dead

can you believe
his baby mother told her mother
about the baby and she kicked her out
yelnats mother not wanting her
grandchild on the streets let her move in with them

you damn right i stopped talking to his ass lol
but it was mutual ...

soooo i chilled with zo ... finally
got kinda ... well alota physical ....
lol .... but umm for the most part
i enjoyed it and we cool.

ummm gotta new joint
named
juan
.... well i dk where this is gonna go
but he cool as shit..
and he funny as all outdoors.
only2 problems
he attends the same school as me
and we the same height....

smoove jesus sandals and flipflops 4 me lls
...... tired of short niggas approaching me
geesh

i mean yelnats and all the utha were tall bt
recently i been getting the midget macs...

ummm other news
hair has been natural 4
3 months .. grew 2 inches lls
as well as i did major spring shopping
still got things i wanna get ...
Overall Spring break was good
mom loafed on me again
but im good
got to visit my real family

Things to talk about soon

--Zo
--Juan
--Hair
--School/grades
--Clothes
--ME ♥
just a quickie 4 my digestees